"release your hatred
and release your grief
give them to me ...
show us the reason
revenge is the key
and then take it on me" ~ MGira




( Demon or Lamb? )

Much experimenting with "hornset" but that's about it - oh, and he's wearing a new wig - my favourite jpopdolls mohair. Yep, the same "look" that SA Saint Junkie Angel sports. Gives this guy definitely more of a forlorn rather than menacing look. IMO. Still haven't gotten to the fabric store, maybe tomorrow! And, joey, my soom hands finally came unglued.

I am still thinking in terms of “this vs. that” today.  Why, I don’t know.  Maybe it is because I have been feeling conflicted lately.  Or maybe it is because of Bionic Commando: ReArmed and all the Deathmatch play I have been uber-enjoying.  But anyway, today I have been wondering about drawing, and drawing from a subject vs. drawing from your imagination.  I am in no way a great sketch artist, but if you give me something to draw from, I can generally produce a decent likeness of said object on paper. Basically, I do possess the ability to “trace” things that I can see with my mind. That leaves me thinking.  How can I train myself to be able to “trace” images that I can see with my mind’s eye?  Is this even possible?  Do most “good” artists draw from models, photos and subjects or are some simply so good that they do not need to draw from subjects and the images just flow out?  I mean, obviously there are some artists who can draw the human figure from their mind in a snap, but might have trouble drawing a Ferrari Testarossa from memory.  And that makes sense.  Something technical, like a car, needs to be memorized or studied from the actual subject or a photograph of the actual subject to create an accurate likeness with a pencil.  You cannot draw something you have never seen, but then again, someone had to make a drawing of a Ferrari Testarossa from their imagination to begin with, or there would be no such car.  Anyway, a Ferrari is not something you see everyday.  But what about things we do see every day?  Something like a person or my dog.  I know exactly what CeCe looks like and that suggests that if you lined up 50 Chihuahuas I would easily be able to pick CeCe out from the group without any trouble.   That means that my mind has memorized various details about what CeCe looks like so that I could tell her apart from the other dogs even if their differences are only slight.  My mind knows exactly where every spot is, every little white eyebrow hair, and every bit about her size and shape.  But if I try to draw CeCe, something stops me from being able to render a perfect image of CeCe down onto paper in an accurate fashion?  Does the answer lie in hand-eye coordination?  Is there a link between my mind and my hand that is not strong enough to translate the image properly?  Is it a right-side, left-side conflict?  It’s a known fact that more left-handed people are good at drawing than right-handed people, and I am right-handed, so could that be it?  Or is it possible that my mind has memorized the details of CeCe in a different way and not as a mental snapshot?  Maybe she is nothing but a combination of small details in my mind that equate to CeCe.  I don’t know.  But what I do know, is that there must be two types of talent, natural and trained, and I am neither.  I’m just a doodler, and I have to make myself content with that, somehow.  So why do I do it?  I have been compelled to render images on paper since I was a child and I have never been particularly good at it.  My desk at work is strewn with papers, notes from work, and amongst them, loads of little sketches of this and that.  I would say that I am an expert doodler, yes, but far from a great sketch artist.  So, why?  Why would I continue to do something that I am not at all good at?  I have known plenty of people who are absolutely fantastic artists who can draw and draw and draw wonderful and stunning drawings, who have completely given up the art, for one reason or another.  If I could draw nearly as well as some of those people, I would probably lock myself up at home with a pencil and paper for weeks at a time.  Or maybe it’s just normal.  Maybe there are a lot people out there who love to do something even though they suck at it, like playing the guitar, or writing, or singing.  And even though they suck at it, they keep doing it because they are compelled to, and don’t know how to do otherwise.  Who knows?  But it is something I have thought about for a long time, and it is really quite annoying.

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AWESOME GADGETS!
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( & many more! )

JOSEPH ERNST // One Page Magazine (Vogue edition)

I have one for my art but I just made one for my Dolls: http://sdink.deviantart.com/ please add me and I can add ya back!

hehe xD Satsuki is so cute! Aichan gave me this outfit as a gift with a head I bought from her.
*sigh* my sweet boy needs more attention from me lately, it has past months since I took photos of him the last time. He has a new faceup but I'm still not satisfied with it ><

oh, next time I have to update with pictures of Aki in the swiming pool xDD

 I am still playing around with angles on Ajeet.  He is just so hard to capture in photos for some reason.  I love this boy and the UH-08 sculpt so much, and I always feel like my photos are never able to translate what is so captivating about it to me.  I think I am getting closer though . . . 

I've been thinking for a while that I might change his face-up, but I wanted to try new eyes with him first and see if it made any difference.  He got his Ruddy Peach Violet with Purple Pupil eyes yesterday, and I think they look fabulous!  Because his eyewells are so deep, it's kind of difficult to capture them, but to me they made a big difference- I feel like I've fallen in love with Ajeet all over again <3



I left him on my bed after putting his eyes in and my sister said he scared the crap out of her when she walked into my room XD  hehehe!  I hardly ever leave my dolls out so I think people forget about them.  She must have thought a little gremlin was sitting on my bed.

My pops was in town for the weekend and wanted to do some hiking.   So we went down
to Markleeville for the day (about an hour south west of Reno).  Its really pretty down
there, but it was a little hot and we all got pretty exhausted in the sun.  Either way, it was
a nice day and good to get outside.

Here is CeCe trying to NOT make friends...

Here is my entry for the first TQ challenge :


I had an idea in my head, but I couldn't get it done in time.. I wanted to have him be a nude model with a pullip painting him in yellow, but eh .. Yeah.. totally not enough time for me to make the set I wanted in my head.. Always seems that way that there is something in my head I can't quite accomplish.

Anyways.. I like it, and I don't, the colors are more predominate in this one, but I did really like the first take I had on the theme, but I didn't know how well having a blurred face would do. :



Hopefully I get more creative if I make it to the next round.

Here is the photo I submitted for Taeyang Quarterly first challenge, the theme is "Colour Theory"...
( Let's Get Green... )

I am so sick of people treating me like I'm not actually a person. I don't actually have opinions on my own dolls, so I'll just not sell Hayden because you like him better like this. Don't change his hair, I like it brown.

Oh. Okay.

I killed some internet down time by taking pics of my LPS and Neopets.

( OMG cuteness )
Okay, hopefully my internet in my room will be up in a couple hours. I'm upstairs in 807 again. Heh.

Hi~

This December, I plan to get a MNF from Fairyland a possibly an extra body depending on how the split goes.

1. Need a MNF Vampire Woosoo Girl split partner!
2. Looking for someone to split heads for A la Carte
3. Looking for someone to split heads for MNF line (343 USD)

Objectives
1. Free shipping LOL
2. Cheaper price for MNF Vampire Woosoo Boy ;A;
3. Get body at cheaper price
4. Because you want heads only! :D

I realised I haven't posted in almost a week. Had no internet at work on the weekend, and by the time I got home I was so tired from either busyness or boredom that I just wanted to sleep.

Had another busy day of sewing today. I'm behind in my schedule so I'm just trying to keep working at things. Once again something stopped me from working on what I had planned, but I managed to get past that and work on something else, and its almost finished and looking awesome! I should be able to get it finished by tomorrow lunchtime if all goes well :3

I'm just generally really fucking tired and really stressed and trying not to allow any of it to get to me at the moment. Hence the title of this post. XD If I relax too much I feel like I'm not gonna get back up again. I haven't had the energy to cook dinner for a week now, and that's bad enough. I don't need to be unable to work two jobs and do wedding crap while I'm at it.

So there probably won't be any doll pics unless I really feel inspired (Phoenix has been at Aeryn's for the past couple of weeks, which has allowed me to actually get a lot of work done! XD), and I apologise to anyone whose posts or emails I haven't commented on or replied to. I'm just so blah.

Made a dress for Ebony and took few pics.
[that's May's body]